just a slight jingle of pocket change pulsing

Your will was never strong enough to see beyond the mist. but then again you never really did have an eye for this.

I cannot even begin to describe how terribly painful these words that came from your mouth are to me. How badly these words have ripped my heart in two. How these words made me feel that death would be more greeting then the life I live causeing you to somehow feel these feelings into agonizing words spearing me like a tropical fish for the taking as the words cause me lack of air as this speared tropical fish out of water. That water I need so badly is your love. And Its all being comsumed for drinking. Causing this little fish to be painfuly out of breath.. never would the words ” I don’t want to love you anymore” hurt so much. If they where not from the tides I swim in. If they where not from the lips of the only woman I. Can say I truely love. And ever have truely loved. From my friend my partner my teamate my right hand man my other half my inner me my love.. never have words hurt me more then a broken bone. Even if that bone was every bone in my body..

joyouslyprofane:

erickimberlinbowley:

The Loneliest Whale in the World.

In 2004, The New York Times wrote an article about the loneliest whale in the world. Scientists have been tracking her since 1992 and they discovered the problem:

She isn’t like any other baleen whale. Unlike all other whales, she doesn’t have friends. She doesn’t have a family. She doesn’t belong to any tribe, pack or gang. She doesn’t have a lover. She never had one. Her songs come in groups of two to six calls, lasting for five to six seconds each. But her voice is unlike any other baleen whale. It is unique—while the rest of her kind communicate between 12 and 25hz, she sings at 52hz. You see, that’s precisely the problem. No other whales can hear her. Every one of her desperate calls to communicate remains unanswered. Each cry ignored. And, with every lonely song, she becomes sadder and more frustrated, her notes going deeper in despair as the years go by.

Just imagine that massive mammal, floating alone and singing—too big to connect with any of the beings it passes, feeling paradoxically small in the vast stretches of empty, open ocean.

this is one of the saddest fucking things. ever.

Ill make sure not to call you when you ask me to for I will most likely get yelles at and end up going to bed upset and alone either way. I’m beginning to feel this is never what you wanted…. :/ and when did your not what I want become the response for your all I have. I’ve never felt so alone….

And I love everything about you. Be mine always! Mothers day is right around the corner and I haven’t got a clue what to get my love. Its weird that me and my love will forever be taking part in the mothers/fathers day shindig. Not used to that sort of thing hahah. Feels kinda good though. I’m proud to call myself a dad and my partner a mother. Never thought that day would come but now that its here I couldn’t be happier honestly. I love my small family. That good old oak tree seed have sprung into a small tree with soo much more time to develop into a strong stable oak. It brings joy to my bones. :)

So I’m more then proud to say things have been more then great lately. Quality time with my love, bonding with my son and my precious angel. Days have been good and warm and full of lingering joy. Working more and more (not the greatest paying job but its better then nothing), just landed a career changing, starting, interview. Its all falling into place the way it should have been from the start. And for once I can honestly say with up most confidence in myself that I am truely proud of myself for staying dedicated, motivated, and focused on my goals and working on my faulty qualitys and correcting things I usually would not have considered to be problems with myself. And with that said everything I’ve wanted more then anything has become a reality and I couldn’t be happier. There is still more to come from everything very soon everything will be just right.

(via joyouslyprofane)

So in a nutshell. My dad calls me a few min ago, I’m thinking just to see how I am considering I’m 21 years old and this last year of my life has been the only time I can actually say he has been any kind of dad to me. So on that note I’m thinking he wants to just see how I am. But no he called me to ask me if I slept with his fiend skin and bone drug girlfriend because apparently she is pissed about my dad sleeping with her sister when she went to jail for stabbing him. So what better way to piss him off and make herself seem even to his doings you ask? She claims I got with her years back which would never ever even muster up to a matter of question of that event ever taking place in my thoughts never mind actually happening. And that’s just the begining of reasons why I would never get with my fathers girl. Most insane thing anyone could ever imagine. Honestly its going to have to top the charts on most redic hilarious things I’ve ever heard or experienced. Soooo funny hahah I’m literally in tears right now I can’t stop laughing.

mothersuperiorr:

caitlynrashel:

disappearinstatic:

redheadisdead

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(via apparatjik)

Do you believe you’re missing out? That everything good is happening somewhe But with nobody in your bed The night is hard to get through And I will die all alone And when I arrive I won’t know anyone Well, Jesus Christ, I’m alone again So what did you do those three days you we Because this problem’s gonna last More than the weekend